Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Days 3, 4, 5, and 6

Still at it.
The weekend proved very difficult and I see that I need to do more planning rather than just squeezing my meditation in before bed. That strategy works thru the week since my evening routine is fairly well set.  However, my weekend evenings  tend to be a little less structured and bedtime may be tomorrow.
This weekend I did the minimum to be able to say I am still on track for 365.    Six hours in the ER meant I had to be creative to get my Sat night sitting in.  Well,  I Committ to doing better next weekend.

On another note I'm getting excited about starting the next round of BTWG.

Friday, January 7, 2011

Day 2

Twenty minute meditation last night. 

It's amazing what your mind will do to distract you. 
How an empty old farmhouse suddenly creaks and moans and pops.  I don't normally hear these sounds.  But when I'm sitting there trying to empty my mind and do nothing suddenly the old house comes alive.  OK Back to the breathe 1... 2.... 3...  Wow I can see a negative image of my eye on the back of my eyelid.... oops 4... 5.... 6....  or maybe I should have started over at 1.... 2.... I guess it doesn't matter  darnit   1.... 2..... 3.... 4...  I wonder if I should have just gone with the 30 day challenge instead of 365  darnit 1..... 2..... 3..... 4....  I really shouldn't get upset with this.  Just acknowledge it and go on. Rats I'm doing it again!  1.... 2.... 3.... OK! Tomorrow I lock the dogs out of the house before trying this.  I don't know what I was thinking leaving two dogs and two cats loose in the house while I try to meditate  1... 2...   WHAT?? That couldn't have been twenty minutes!

Thursday, January 6, 2011

Day 1 Wed Jan 5th

Was so happy that my lovely daughter Lizzy joined me. We sat and meditated for 15 minutes last night.

The questions of a 10 year old can be so enlightening!


There are those moments in life when you open your mouth and you immediately hope no one heard what you said.  I had the electronic version of one of those moments yesterday. 
I was reading Chris’ BTWG blog yesterday and about his commitment to meditating every day for the next 365.  I’ve done some meditation.  A couple of years ago Chris came to Lilly and we met early in the morning and meditated.  It was my first experience with meditation.  That was reinforced when I went thru the first BTWG class.  I feel an affinity to meditation but do find it difficult to “find the time”.  I find it difficult to let go of the feeling that I ought to be doing something.
I had read the first couple of his posts about meditating and the idea started bouncing around in my head…. Could I do it?   What’s so hard about sitting and doing nothing?  
Then I read his Day 4 post.  Long day, noisy house, frustration….it would have been so easy not to do it.  (That felt so familiar to me.)  But Chris dragged his butt to the cushion and did it!!  In a moment of over-exuberance I thought I’ll do it too!  So, I typed a quick little comment about how he had inspired me to do the same…….. then I set there with my finger on the “Submit” button….. I sat there for several minutes…. Not wanting to back down but afraid to commit.  I thought that maybe I would not post the commitment but would just try to do it on my own.  But, I realized that by doing that I was avoiding the commitment and allowing myself a quiet escape if I failed.   
Not this time. 
I commit to meditating a minimum of 10 minutes every day for the next 365.